“It’s not that I don’t love you, it’s that I don’t trust you”
There are so many the times this phrase has destroyed thousands of relationships .They say love comes with trust. Love should be all about trust. That’s what they say but as you know, I don’t always come to reason with what others imply. I’ve been there. I’ve said that phrase and I really meant it. Trust is not something you always receive from the very beginning. It grows in time. However, if your beloved one gives you reasons to doubt him or her, why won’t you? It’s obvious you will even if you love.
As it concerns my life, I’ve always been an insecure person. That’s because I’ve always been disappointed and judged by people. Maybe my attitude helped that but I wouldn’t change it. I always look things through. I’m never one hundred percent certain of something or someone. So, I don’t think love and trust complete each other. I mean, you may love but not trust. This means the end of a relationship most times but that doesn’t mean you will stop loving.
Our world is changed. I was standing there by the sea just a few hours ago, staring at the people passing by. It was a calm night. The full moon was sparkling and the air smelt different. Dirtier but cleaner. Difficult to understand. Kids smiling, crying, hurt faces, happy faces, homeless people, poor and rich, young and old. A mixture of cultures. One only thing in common; their expressions. Everybody seemed to hide something. Feelings. Emotions. Our world of materialization and individualization changed every spontaneous moment you’d see ten or twenty years ago. People seem to care only about their individual problems. No sharing. Nothing left to enthusiasm about. I stood up, walked a few metres until the lighthouse. I stayed there. This time facing only the sea and the moon. Nothing else. It was only the wind I could hear. Suddenly, a group of people approached. There were two couples. They stayed near by me. I could hear their conversation so I paid attention as It was the only thing I could do then. What they were saying; well…they were talking about changing partners between them. Yeah, that’s how reality works now. No love. Just sex. You know; friends with benefits. It was so strange to hear that. It was like all the magic was gone. It was a raw scene. Stood up for the second time and walked back. Walking I realized the world it’s still the same. I’ve changed. My conceptions. The world is just evolving. In a good or bad way. That’s left to see…The scene I saw it was just a random fact. A choice…It was their choice. So I concluded, we don’t all think the same. Sometimes we’d want somebody to think like us. It’s impossible and at the same time stupid. Differences make us matter.